I grew up in the country. I had a childhood filled with memories of running through endless corn fields, playing in the dirt, riding my bike on long dirt roads till the sun went down, fishing with my brother every afternoon, playing and dancing under the irrigation system (which is basically like the world’s largest lawn sprinkler), and quiet nights with a sky full of stars and making so many wishes I can not remember them all. It was beautiful. I loved every minute of my childhood. I grew up surrounded by family who loved me, brother and sisters who always joined me in the mud puddles and getting into whatever mischief we could. Summers were spent on the farm, which meant you basically did not leave the 300 acres of where my house was until September when school started again. But, like many of you my adolescent years were spent in open rebellion. Sneaking out, lying, trying to be anywhere but, home. You get the idea. Now I would give anything to be on that farm with my children giving them the kind of childhood I had. It was not meant to be as they are all adults now except for my baby who is 16.
When I was that little girl, God very clearly spoke to me. He said, “I love you.” I bet you were thinking I was going to say something hugely enlightening right? No. He kept it simple for a dreamy little girl whose imagination would lose control. It was in that moment though I realized God was real. That He actually cared about me. When I spent countless nights staring out my bedroom window missing my mom and crying He would meet me. God who is bigger than any of us could ever think or imagine, would comfort my soul and bless me with His presence.
Fast forward to the 41-year-old woman I am today and guess what? That same God who comforted me all those years ago met me again this morning. He said, “Amy, this is where I want you.” Tears rolled down my face as I felt the Holy Spirit give me a peace I have been seeking for the past few weeks. You see, I have been in a dry spell and during this time my hubby and I have made some changes. Changes I thought the Lord wanted us to make. It has been a struggle to remain positive and focused. To have faith that God says we are to have. The only thing I knew during this time was that no matter what is going on in my physical world, I had to continue to seek Him every single day. He had to be number one in my life and in my day. First thing every morning I get up get my Bible out open it to whatever, read and journal. Then, I read a devotional (currently I am working through for the 6th time, 31 Days for the Dreamer and the Doer) write out all the scripture, I pray for a bit and then I pray during my run. That is all I knew I should be doing. Yesterday, I had a sense that God was smiling at me. Almost, like He was proud of my determination to seek Him. I know He is but it was and extra special feeling-I can’t really explain it. When today I heard Him say that, my heart was happy. Peace was my friend. I know that the God of the universe is capable of handling any and all problems we have. Sometimes with our limited minds we forget just how BIG HE is! Without Faith it is impossible to please God. I pray for my faith to increase daily as I pray for God to deliver manna to us. Literally. I used to have a problem with understanding faith and when faith becomes foolishness. I have been asking God that question for 20 years and finally He answered me. Faith is always foolish in the world’s eyes. Because faith is believing what is not seen. If something you have faith about does not happen it does not mean it was foolish it just means God said NO. I know there are different levels of faith. Baby Christians take faith like it is a debit card with and unlimited amount of money and spend it like crazy. Then, when it gets declined they get mad and instead of calling the bank they cut the card up and throw it away. They may never try to have faith in anything again or it takes some time. Then there is the faith that you believe for something but you are controlling all aspects of that thing happening, example if you were praying for another job with a higher pay rate and you get the job. Yes, it took faith to believe but you were also the only person interviewed for the position. Do you understand what I am saying? Then, there is faith like God says, Say to this mountain be moved and cast into the sea and it will be done. You believe without really thinking about it. Your faith is solid because you believe in God and so that mountain is moved and thrown into the sea. I understand now the line between faith and foolishness. It will always be foolish to the world. Sometimes, God just says NO and other times He tests us to see if we can handle more. Which brings me back to my point. No matter where you are in life right now. No matter what is going on in your physical world. If you are in the valley or on the mountain top. God loves YOU, He sees YOU, He hears YOU, He is right beside YOU! I urge you today to look around at what you can be grateful for at this very moment and thank Him who provides. With a grateful heart you can submit your requests to God and it will be done. If you want to join in on a 31 day Bible Devotional Group going on this month using the devotional I said I was doing let me know and you can be added. If you have never read 31 Days of prayer for the Dreamer and the Doer it is the best devotional I have ever read for people, who are artist, dreamers, writers, business owners, daughters, mothers and so on. I urge you to join there are live videos every morning on Facebook and you do not need to own the book to do it because the woman who is leading this will take pics and post them for you.
Here is the link if you want to join!
Lots of Love,
Amy aka JunkyGypsy