Magic of Creating A Life You Love

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Hey Tribe Sista’s,

It has been a while since my last post and a lot has been going on to say the least. Life. I always though of life as living. Existing and only ever reaching a height or hitting the ceiling after you get married, have kids, buy a house, two cars and a dog. Or at least that is the way the story goes. Ok so maybe I exaggerated a little, actually a lot when it comes to the movie my life played out so far. Married at 18, four kids by 25. No house except the occasional rental. Car, yes, dog & cat yes. For ten years I was the main character of this movie. As year by year progressed and physical and emotional abuse ensued. The best thing out of this story are my four amazing kids. That is the reason for the whole story anyway. Simple and not really hard to figure out, God blessed me these awesome individuals. As the story goes life happened to me and not for me during these early years. Which brings me to the second section of my story. It involves a rescuer, a savior in my eyes. A leader, a handsome figure. My knight in shining armor. Rushing to my rescue amidst the crazy that was my family. He stood up for me and took charge, which is exactly what I wanted for a squeaky little mouse like me at the time. I loved every minute of it. We were a blended family but plagued with troubles of courts and custody, child support and all things that involve a blended family. It almost seemed doomed from the beginning. We fought it out, through owning a business and the lost of home after home. Part due to the economy and part due to lack of work. I was wore out during these twelve years. I was run ragged and the thought of trying to fix it all was just too much for me. What did I do instead after ten years I began to look at myself and contemplate what my internal issues were. Slowly, over a period of three long hard struggling years and the lost of our children and more homes did I find my power! My inner strength I had always had. The ability deep within my soul to make the changes I so longed for. Which brings me to part three. This is really just the beginning and the real “meat” of what I want you to hear me say.

Just like I spent many years in reflective self-development, before I found the Wonder Woman power I was born with. You too may need to spend some time on internal work. I had to get very, very clear with what I wanted. Day after day, I filled journals with every detail of my new life that was to be the third chapter. Today, I am living very much the vision that has come to pass. I witnessed first hand the magic power in my words and the evidence of miracles attached to them.

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I never really thought manifesting worked until this past week. Having witnessed the power of manifesting I am a firm believer for life. I manifested the job I start today. I manifested the house I am living in. Now, I am ready to manifest bigger and bolder things like expanding all aspects of my business and finances. This will work for YOU! Here are some simple steps to follow to get you creating a magical life you love.

  • Begin every morning early by journaling what you are grateful for.
  • Write out affirmations that are reflective of the life you want to create. This is the part that you must be very clear on. Example; I live in a cute house in the mountains with a mountain view of my back deck.
  • Visualization, you have to close your eyes and visualize what your dream life feels like. What do you smell? How does it feel to be in this place? What do you hear? Take about 5 minutes every morning to do this.
  • Be intentional about your days. Plan each day with action plans that will move the needle closer to your dreams.

These are the actions I took everyday for over three years. It did not have to take that long but, I had to learn more about myself before the needle could fully move. I am off to my new job and so very grateful for the opportunities I have and the ones to come! I love you all and thank you for being on this journey with me.

Love,

JunkyGypsy

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Dear Daughter’s

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This post is dedicated to my daughter’s. Yes, I have one son and I will write a different one for him. For today this is the new message I want to send out into the world to my daughter’s so that they will understand the POWER of their WORDS and create a life they love instead of choosing to be a victim and allow life to “happen” to them.

Dear Beloved Daughter’s,

This is for you. No more I’m sorrys, no more I promise, no more I will do, no more falsehood. Just real words that come with real POWER! This is what I want to share with each of you.

You are fierce and strong. Full of fire, not even YOU can hold YOU back! You have conquered your fears one by one. You are beautiful and smart. You exude peace and choose to walk in integrity. You are powerful and speak your mind. You love others well and always choose kindness. You know your worth and what God says about YOU. You will not tolerate anything less than the BEST for your life. You are independent, focused, and ambitious. You are a BOSS. You handle your own. You are spiritual, selfless, and you understand the definition of unconditional love. You are the best of both worlds. You are an example to ME! Daughter of Zion stand in your strength. Hold onto your truth and be still before your God. Let love radiate out of you onto others. Your presence can not be ignored. Beauty surrounds you. You are loved by all.

Thank you for being my teacher! Thank you for being you.

Love,

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Creating the Dream

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Hey Love,

I have been on a rampage today. This morning I began with a simple prayer but one I have been praying for sometime now. I pray for God to give me wisdom, knowledge and understanding as He did for Solomon. I have craved wisdom just so I would stop making the mistakes I keep making and living a small life. I know I am meant for more. I know with my business that I have a ministry to women and to my children. Today was jam packed with eye opening wisdom. I have zoned in on my purpose and my WHY. Everyday it gets a little clearer and more focused. I fully accept responsibility for the lack of growth in my biz. I have sat behind this computer acting AS IF, but doing nothing on the outside. I feel led to host and event in the near future and speak in front of hundreds of my beautiful Sista’s. I am going to share my journey and my story. I know, I can not share it until I have walked the lessons out first and I have a few that I must face head on before I can share. Why am I pouring my heart out?

To get you excited. Have you been on the edge of something you know you must do? Have you been silently suffering inside and dying a little each day because you know you were meant to do more? Does your life look anything like the vision you had when you were young? No. That is what I thought. Mine either. I will tell you before that awaking can happen you must find your POWER. Do you know what your POWER is? let me tell you. Your POWER is: your strength, your discipline to do what is right, your hope for the future, your dreams, your integrity, your prayers, your peace, your joy, your freedom, your resilience, your love, your passion, your beauty, your attitude, your patience. It is any strong characteristic that you uniquely have. What happens to us (women) is we often give our POWER away for free all the time without realizing it. I have finally found mine and I am rebuilding the infrastructure of my POWER to be stronger than ever. I made a promise to myself that I would never give it away again. Ever. As women we must be very intentional about protecting our POWER. If our boundaries are weak then before long our POWER has been lost. You might be a loud assertive woman and say to yourself, ” This chic is crazy I got my sh*t together.” Sometimes we have lost access to our POWER without even knowing that it was stolen or misplaced. Once you find out that you have to get control of your POWER slowly you will begin to see the things differently again. The truth will shine out of the darkness. The windows of your soul fly open and a new breeze is blowing. Your world changes from the inside out. With that newness, you can decide the direction of your dreams. You can set your goals and learn new habits. You are a super star! Now that I have found my POWER, my eyes are open to understand complexity and constant change are everywhere and I can now avoid extreme thinking. Which was a big problem for me. I am transforming my mind and my thinking and learning new skills that align with my dreams and goals. Through my experiences I can share with you Sista’s your own path to FREEDOM. I want you to be free in all areas of your life! Beautiful beloved you deserve all the awesomeness you dream life has to offer! If you are interested in joining me in my journey let me know! I want to cultivate a culture of Sista’s who celebrate life for all it is and dream big together. To share our battles and our victories. To love and lift in prayer and praise. Let’s live a passionate life of servanthood. Share your story below, I want to hear!

 

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PS. I have a new website I want you to checkout! Here! it is really awesome!

I am celebrating finding my POWER this week by doing an “It’s okay” Challenge for you Sista’s to build confidence. Each day on facebook I will post an “it’s okay..” for you to… be sure to follow along!

 

Hey Babe! I also wrote this little e-book for YOU! Check it out on Amazon for 2.99

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Love,

JunkyGypsy

©2017 JunkyGypsy Inspirations

What do You Put Up With?

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Have you ever thought about the things you tolerate or allow in your life? Not many people do. I am not sure what the percentage is of people who actually think about it is but, I am sure it is less than 50%. I am not talking about the stuff that happens to you that you may have not control over. I am talking about living on a low-level. Settling. Sitting your dreams on a shelf because maybe life happened and you forgot what you wanted out of life. Or when you maybe once had high standards and then something came along and made your standards seem unrealistic. Those kind of tolerations. Did you know that as long as you are the one allowing people to treat you a certain way, or living a certain way creates a vibe that attracts more of the same. I hope I am shedding some light here. It is hard and painful to admit it when we allow those things. I know, I did it for years. Then I read a book by Tony Robbins– that changed it all.

You have a chance to STOP tolerating low-level crap! You don’t have to put up with anything less than the best for your life. I am sure there are skeptics reading this and that’s okay. Or maybe you are reading this and it is a money thing for you. Guess what? That’s okay too. You really can put and end to the crap you have been putting up with in your life. Let it GO! Stop tolerating it and set some standards. Sit down write out what you standards are for your life. Then, make a “real life” list and compare the two. If anything is out of line it time to let it go and raise the bar. If you have low self-esteem and don’t believe you are worth it then, you need to do some internal work. Because YOU TOTALLY ARE! Get out of your head, get your mind focused on what you want you life to be and stop tolerating anything less! I want you to chase your dreams and goals and WIN at Life!  Just being real here!

Love,

Amy

Expanding & Stretching

I have been so emotional the past few days, I’m not really sure what’s going on. I think maybe I am being stretched for growth? Not sure. Anyway, I need to share some “real” stuff that is on my heart. Sometimes in the blogging, social media infested world we live in we try to portray our lives as pretty and maybe not so perfect but, awesome. I am the same way, I don’t want any negative feed on my Instagram or Facebook. It is nice to see some honest, raw, real life post every once in a while. So, my social media accounts tend to be very positive and uplifting. I try to motivate and encourage others online. Then , real life is not so rosey. That is what I am sharing today.

I may be putting too much pressure on myself to change old behaviors and develop the new ones I want so badly. Example– I want to stop saying I’m sorry all the time. I want to have confidence in who I am as a person (which I do) but, I want it to radiate. My highest priority with myself is pursuing freedom. In every area I desire total FREEDOM. Always show grace and be non judgemental attitude. I began to ask myself this one question daily. “Is this moving me toward freedom, or daily struggle? This one question changed my entire outlook on life believe it or not. When I thought about the choices I have in a day it really caused me to stop reflect. As we draw closer and closer to fall I am feeling a since of urgency on the goals I wanted to crush this year. I have met a few of them. I had and still have a mission to be a light and shine so brightly that everyone whom I encounter in a single day takes notice. I also, have a desire to leave everyone feeling more loved and more valuable when they leave me. I think I have not mastered the BIG goals I wanted to accomplish this year. Finances, my doTERRA Tribe growing, hitting Silver than Gold then Diamond! Writing my book, monetizing my blog, and having a freaking amazing online business! I know and I have determined today that I will NOT give up! I have no choice right now other than to succeed. You see the reality is I am at rock bottom right now.

Shop now-www.reallygreatsite.comThere is no where for me to go but UP! I want to express to you that I am NOT sharing this out of pity or depression. I am sharing because I live my life “AS IF” meaning I live like I have so when I do have I know how to embrace it with love, passion, grace, humility, and purpose. Here goes the confession; I live in an RV built-in 1990. It could be nice but, the roof is bad so it rains in my “house”. The walls are like sponges and everything is moldy and wet. Even with all of my effort to keep it dry and clean. I currently am living in a stranger’s yard, where my RV sank deep into the mud and is now stuck so I can not leave to dump the shit tank. Anyone who has ever RVed knows what I mean. The positives, I have running water, not hot. I have wi-fi, power and a small dorm fridge that barely works but, it works. I have been seeking employment for about a month now. I made a bad choice and left my stable weekly paycheck at a beautiful campground because I allowed the lies and rumors others were throwing around to bug me. Instead of standing my ground. Lesson learned! I get up everyday with hope that today is the day! My kiddos can not live with me because I can not afford a home. I don’t have a car, that dies a few weeks ago. I was able to afford my doTERRA LRP for a while and loved my vitamins and supplements because they made me feel better. I run everyday because it is my only time of day I can try to forget what my current life situation looks like. My checking account is overdrawn 172.00. My savings account is empty. I take Benadryl to sleep. Every single day I work on my business. Day in and day out. I write, I share, I pray, I evolve, I muster up feelings of joy to share cute pics on Instagram. I blog about how to fulfill your dreams and goals all the while feeling like a fraud. I escape to Pinterest so I can feel like I am traveling the world as a gypsy and exploring God’s wonderous creations. There you have it. Now, you understand I really can not go anywhere but UP! I will continue to learn, write, plan, share, serve a community I am building online. It’s all about transparency. Truth. Raw life.

The Word of the Lord says this:

For whoever has despised the day of small things shall rejoice and shall see the plumbline in the land Zerubbabel.”

Zechariah 4:10

I have a dream-a dream of a happy home in the mountains, perfect tranquility, serving women I love, leading encouraging, supporting,building community.

A TRIBE, A Life, An Example.

I wear truth, integrity, love, grace, compassion, wisdom,  trust, confidence, beauty, and transparency. I am, bold and courageous!~ I teach my kids my kids to go after their dreams and goals and never ever give up!

Love,

JunkyGypsy

Celebrate Beautiful Essential Oils! Get’em Here!

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– Grow your doTerra Business quickly, sustainably and in a way that feels GOOD

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You’ll get everything you need from me when you become a part of the JunkyGypsy Essential Oil Community, through my unique URL below, along with…

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– A free 7-day Training Course (with videos, worksheets, and a few guided prayer meditations!)

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– Email + Zoom access to me to get support when and if you need it as you grow your business/Tribe!

GOT QUESTIONS? – junkygypsyinspirations@gmail.com

OR NEED SUPPORT ENROLLING? facebook.com/junkygypsyinspirations 

1. Use the button below to access my personal doTerra site to become a JunkyGypsy Tribe Member (aka “Wellness Advocate”)

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NOTE: in the area that says “Enroller ID” use mine if it is blank: 2434032

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My personal favorites to start out that will help you meet your goals, and welcome you into the world of doTerra quickly:

-doTerra Emotional Aromatherapy Diffuser System (with or without the diffuser, these blends are powerful). 6 oils with names like Peace, Console, Cheer, Motivate, Passion, and Forgive – are beautiful for enhancing or navigating the emotions of everyday life with more grace

 – Family Wellness Kit (includes a variety of oils, some single oils and some blends) – I started out with this kit for my family, and found all of the scents to be absolutely delicious, especially peppermint, lemon, Deep Blue (perfect for muscle aches, headaches, and soreness)

 – doTerra AromaTouch System (with or without diffuser) is SO delicious; Balance, a floral and woodsy blend included in this kit, is one of my favorites for grounding and feeling connected and at home in my body.

 

 WAYS TO GET THE MOST OUT OF YOUR ESSENTIAL OILS

There are a wide variety of scents, and there are MANY ways to use them…

– applied topically to the wrists, bottoms of feet, cleavage, or neck

– ingested with water or used in baking or cooking (each oil will say on the bottle if it is safe to consume)

– used in a diffuser

– used in creation of candles, lotions, balms, and household cleaners

– put in the bath water to create a soothing or clearing presence and vibration (perfect with epsom salt baths for relaxation and energy clearing!)

– use specific scents in a pinch to elevate your energy, release stress, and welcome more ease, flow, motivation, and inspiration

 JunkyGypsy Essential Oil Blends!

 

 

I want you as a part of a beautiful Tribe of women who are excited to Live.Love.Learn and get Crazy Inspired!

Love,

JunkyGypsy

Tribe Vibes

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Hello Beautiful!

Last week I really kicked butt in my biz! I worked diligently for hours and hours on end creating content, updating social media etc. It was great. This week  am moving at a slower pace. I experienced a minor set back over the weekend that kinda paralyzed me and caused me question myself. Sunday I found myself really needing to take a long hard look at where I wanted go. I needed some time to just sit and be quiet. Which is really hard for me because one of my weaknesses is patience. After the reflection I committed to myself. I said, “Amy, you are going to make this happen. You are walking your brand around all day, everyday. You are the only one who will fight for your purpose and passion.” I took some notes that really have not sunk in yet. I did write everything down that just began to pour out of me. I declared–I can and I will. I will do it scared. I will keep moving and investing. I am sowing seeds and when they grow and blossom, oh my what a pretty picture it will be. What I am struggling with is what to do with all of the information that flooded my mid and landed on my journal pages. There are many great things that I jotted down. I will share with you guys in little bits as I grow to understand what each means.

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This week I felt lead to run a promo–7 Days of Inspir-ACTION! In keeping it simple I give one assignment for growth, one essential oils blend to diffuse, and one question to ask yourself and reflect on. My desire to inspire is always a beautiful thing! Follow me on Facebook to see tomorrows Day 3 activities!

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I am praying for some answers from the Lord, about some personal matters. He has not answered yet. I am feeling led to embrace a more assertive me. To stand up for what I believe and what I want to shower on others! All of this involves a new morning routine, new boundaries, and new confidence. I am super excited to be molded and growing! Growth is exciting and hard all at the same time. I welcome it for me I never want to stop growing! I am a student of myself for life!

 

Hey, I’m JunkyGypsy and we are going to Live.Love.Learn and get crazy inspired together!

Click here if you are ready to begin your essential oil journey! Oil Love

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Transparency?

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What are your thoughts on transparency? I always thought it was a good thing. To me it meant that you were not fake. People could see the real, raw, YOU! I think today somewhere in the self-development world improvement world people have been told to only be positive and show the highlight reels of their life and biz. I know I don’t want to read about someone being negative and a Debbie Downer for sure. I do like to see if there are others out there struggling through the same issues as I have. I want to see how they overcame. Today, it seems like everyone is all happy-go-lucky and explore your poor world with a smile crap….I don’t know it is just that there is not a lot of the real and the raw.  Like in the Bible–look at Job for crying out loud…his friends tried to tell him that he was not a “good guy”. He must have betrayed God in some way to be treated like he was. They did not want to look at his Instagram for sure..but Job in all wisdom touched it out I mean the guy lost it all and still praised our Lord! Anyway, my point is there are not a lot of people showing there struggles only the end result. I want to be very transparent with you all. So, here is what I wrote the other day:

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This is the last week of July can you believe it! We are in full swing of summer and yet, when I went to the store last week the isles were lined with “Back to School” stuff. I always feel the retail world is trying to speed time up year after year. Mentally they are accomplishing their mission. I guess next week Turkeys will be on sale for Thanksgiving! JK. Any who, I have lots to talk about. Have you ever been on the very on the edge of something? You know like a dream that you invested so much hard work and effort into and you find yourself right on the edge of either making it work or falling off the cliff. That’s where I am at. I worked tirelessly on the book I published and now just finished the leg work of the fall DETOXoxo. I am writing a new book, still blogging as often as I can, I am sharing essential oils with whoever will listen, always listening to a motivational book, listening to my mentors, trying to find a place to host classes, I want to go back to school, look for a “real” job as the world would say and I am working on making more videos. It sounds like a lot when I put it that way. Truth is my days are pretty dull. I spend about 4 hours working on the computer, reading, and praying. A lot of praying!! You see none of this “work” has brought me one single penny. Not one. I have a vision and a passion to change the lives of people. But, where are these people or this “TRIBE” I am trying to bring together? I ask myself this every single day….I am not complaining here. I am being transparent so you can see who I really am. I am a 41-year-old mom. My kids don’t live with me they are all adults except the 16 yr. old who went to go live with her sister. Not far from us. Living in my RV in someone’s yard, trying to scrap 2 pennies together to get $5.00 for dog food. You see I am not lazy or unwilling to work. NO. I just left my full-time job last month to move closer to the kids. I just have a dream. I am working hard on it. I am utilizing the gifts that God has given me to build a company and a brand that will change the lives of people. Are you that person? I don’t know. You have to decide that. I know about being overweight, atone point in my life I weighed over 200 lbs. I know about being a young mother struggling to find purpose in the midst of four crying babies, I know the pain of divorce, I have been broke and homeless I have also been rich and stupid. I have been unhealthy and healthy. I have been a teacher, a house cleaner, a seafood manager, a florist, a sales clerk, produce stocker, an owner of a thrift store, a farmer’s market manager, a campground host, a waitress, office manager, and more. I have explored job after job trying to find my place in the world but more often than not trying to pay the rent! Here I am. Amy. You see when I wake up everyday with enthusiasm and excitement to share a tiny drop of wisdom on how you can get healthy by eating an apple everyday or boost your attitude by diffusing essential oils. I speak from experience. I share what I know works. I am not perfect by very very far….but neither are you. Together we can support one another and be a beautiful mess growing, loving, serving, and leading more to do the same. When I create a program, book, blog post, or email. I do it in love. Because I care about the mom who works the 40 hour a week job with 3 kids in school and no time for herself and maybe she hasn’t had a bath in a month because she is always last on the list. I care about the addict shooting up heroin in the back alley of a dirty street with no hope for the future and being so consumed by a drug you can imagine your life in the next 5 min. because it controls you. I care about the overweight person on the verge of being diabetic due to their unhealthy eating habits and toxins in everything. I have found solutions to these problems and I have made the changes, quit the bad habits, and my passion is to help YOU get to where YOU want to be. I love YOU! Truth Talk !

Let me know if tyou do not like transparency or not! I’m all ears!

 

Lots of Love,

Amy

Simple Seeds

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Hey JunkyGypsy Lovers!

Well, I did it! Not by myself but, with my hubby ,whom is super awesome supportive and rocks my world! It all began last winter. My hubby and I were constantly busy with work, life you know just the stuff that takes up all your time because you are doing more stuff that takes up more time. He came up with the idea, it was brilliant I must say! One day after work I pulled out a composition notebook, we were to answer three very simple questions. The idea was that we each would answer the same three questions everyday in a different way for each other. Whoever, grabbed the notebook first had the task of answering the questions. Honestly, I think we were both so excited about the challenge that we both fought over who would go first! Then of course,one would be left waiting patiently for the their turn. Mike came up with the questions. I couldn’t argue it was brilliant, simple, easy, honest , raw and loving. On the first day the question starred me in the face.

What is something you want for the other? 

“That’s good. ” I thought. I had to answer this question everyday in a different way? “Ge’ez this might be harder than I imagined.” Nevertheless, I was up for it. So, day after day we continued. As each day progressed my answers  became more in-depth as his remained simple and to the point. It was great. Our marriage was blooming. We had found a way to communicate our love for one another in a new and fun way. Now, we decided to share it with the world. I truly believe all marriages will benefit from this 21 day challenge. It is super simple, fun and innovative. What makes this journal work is that a couple works from the same journal. It takes less than 10 minutes a day to complete the task.

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To celebrate us publishing our book, we are running a contest. To enter you must fill out the form below and share this post 5 times on various platforms Facebook, Twitter, and Instagram and tag one friend who would benefit from this book. Contest ends on July 15th @ 12 am. Winners will be picked randomly on July 16th and announced by 6 pm.

1st Place- Free Copy of Simple Seeds & 25.00 Gift Card for a date night!

2nd Place- Free Copy of Simple Seeds Autographed with a Marriage Prayer & E-book

3rd Place-Free Copy of Simple Seeds

We are offering our book for a limited time at 9.99!

READY? SET……GO! You can also purchase it here on Amazon for 12.99!

 

Lots of Love & Good Luck!

Amy 

Lessons!

 

 

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My priorities are family and work I love!

Hey JunkyGypsy Lovers!

It has been a while since my last post. I was a bit raw in my subject last time. I have been working on myself internally for the past year. Seriously, changing behaviors and thought patterns. I can look back and see how much of my old self I left behind to embrace the “new” me or the “mature” me. It is strange for me to think about how I used to be. I realize now the influence I had on my kids. The way I lived in “reaction mode” 90% of the time. How fear & anxiety gripped me. How I was so indecisive I would have stomach pains just trying to make even the most basic of decisions. The worst was the addictions, alcohol, sugar, drugs (legal), television, and my addiction to poverty. I can see clearly how the way I behaved or the so-called example I was setting has now been thrust onto my children without permission. It hurts to know I did that but, I also know that I am a better example to them today and going forward because I choose to continuously grow. I choose to work on myself daily and even if it is painful and super uncomfortable I have fully committed to my growth as a woman, entrepreneur, wife, and mother.

I briefly want to share my mini growth spurt going on right now as I type. This one hurts! I want to lash out, hit someone, scream at the top of my lungs, ” IT’S NOT F**CKING FAIR!” It is that kinda brutal going on. The lesson is this, once I reach deep inside of myself find my power, the power that God has given me as His daughter and my birth right. (By the way, you have this power too!) Speak up for myself, stand my ground, set real boundaries, and stop allowing people to abuse me and take advantage of me or I of them. I can go to the next level in my life. I must confront things I do not wish to confront. I must deal with things I’d rather not deal with at all. Now is the time! I know it is the time. Have you ever had something keep showing up in your life over and over? Every time it rears its ugly head you push it back down? That is the way this thing has been showing up. Lies, upon lies, treated like a slave, total unfairness, etc….I could go on and on. In the past, all I would do is ignore it over and over. Not any more girl friend shit is about to get real! Part of the lesson is learning how to be a b*tch without being a b*tch. I must be firm, fair, honest, and loving. I know when I embrace all of me the me God created me to be in the proper way, God will bless me. Just this morning I read in my Bible– Deuteronomy 30:7

The LORD your God will put all these curses on your enemies who hate and persecute you.”

It is funny that I read that during my devotional time with the Lord this morning and then we were once again attacked. I can not figure out why. I have been in a deep growth period and it seems the seasons we are going through here seem to keep showing up. Honestly, I am at the end of my rope, I am praying and releasing. I know that God hates bitterness. Once, I make through this hard period of growth I know God shall pour out a blessing to large enough for me to contain. Please keep me in your prayers!

I read this scripture today too, funny because the last few weeks this is how I have felt. Humiliated and abused.

Deuteronomy 26:6

When the Egyptians oppressed and humiliated us by making us their slaves,

I am sharing this because we should always be open to growth no matter how painful it is. Sometimes it will be harder than other times but, as long as we are growing only good things can happen. This is your life, make it what you want. Trust your intuition, stay focused, serve, and love others well. That is our mandate. LOVE.

Peace & Joy,

Amy

 

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